September 18, 2007 at 5:44 AM

I heard the most beautiful song I've ever heard yesterday and its been making me cry nonstop... I didn't realize how pent up I was and how sensative I can be... I wanted to share this happy feeling with everyone in hopes they'd feel the same sad happines I feel. It's a beautiful thing....

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I dunno what it is about that voice that just rips my heart open to emotions... but because sadness is stored away in a "soldier" like myself, I'm nonstop miserable, but its a good thing somehow........

I have my lovely friend Azara to thank for showing this to me. Thank you Azzy! You've made this lil soldier a lot stronger and much more open to others!

June 22nd, 2007

IT was...... kinda boring. XD But it was pretty fun considering the options I had. Everybody Came over here, chilled for a bit, got drunk and left..... I also got my 15 lickings (I'm still sore X3) but I got a HUGE ass cake and my favorite ice cream, French vanilla! Yum!

Jeremy and I also had a very good talk. It made us both cry, and made me realize a few things. Like when My grandfather died about a year ago, I realized My brother Oatmeal, Jeremy and the rest of Oats' friends replaced the wisdom in my like that my grandfather gave me. It really made me think.......

There were plenty of friends there, but I wish a few had been there to see it..... my beloved red foxie sister Jeanne-Marie, Cookie my lil furry sis, Katsuki, Kiname, Zoe, Matt, Sergei, and a few others....... *sigh* It would've made the day perfect.........

But given that it wasn't too good, I still had fun and I'm happy to be 15 I guess.......

May 22, 2007

There was this big car wreck on the main road right at the turnoff to my house. In a nutshell with what logic tells me ((I never really SAW the wreck, but I was right next to the area when it happened, plus I never learned exactly what happened)), a black landrover was running from the police and lost control. It crashed into a chevy pickup with two people in it, spun out, hit a second truck, then flipped onto the grass.

It's not as bad as it sounds because even the guy in the driver seat of the chevy, who took most of the impact, was alive and well. Sadly, the same CAN be said for the criminal.......... But as far as it could've gone, both trucks are just leaning to the front driver-side wheel and the chevy is totalled to a light extent. The driver who caught the impact was just force to lean right and had a bit of a cut on the left of his face, but both he and his wife are alright. The weird part is he's a mute. o.o

The second pickup was the same but not as bad, it could easily be repaired and used again for a while. The driver was just looking around because he was scared to move as if the truck would blow, but neither gas nor oil was leaking from any of the vehicles. Only a strip of coolant from the chevy. The driver of the second truck eventually got out I guess and just went to the paramedics as they arived, just wanting to go home. I would have too!

As for the Land Rover.... I never really got all that close, but it looked as though it was leaning to the right completely and wasn't going anywhere, being blocked on the grass by two police cruisers. We saw somebody getting cuffed so I regret to say the criminal made it out alive, but we're sure that he'll rot in the prison during his sentence.

... and ironically the weirdest I'll ever submit here. It was so strange but it was realistic, sort of like a game that I'm in...... there was two parts though.

The first part I was in this hallway overpacked with people and it connects as a square circuit, and I wasn't allowed to go into any of the doors. But I didn't want to because I was sooooo ****ing fast! I was darting past people, being admired, and I never ran into anyone! Then I met up with some guys at a collection of tables where only the four of them were, people stayed far away. I got to talking to them, and I was interested in the one that looks like a friend of mine IRL ((Joshua Montgomery))..... He had his laptop up looking at mutilated corpses from murderers he was friends with, and eventually he wanted to test my speed. So he brought this FREAKY-AS-****-ALL teddy bear to life ((cartoon-like with triangle sharp teeth)) with blood all over it and it made a blood-curdling howl!!! I ran three laps of the huge squared-link halls in like five seconds ((got a look up an anime girlie's skirt :3)) and it just......... disappeared.......... But I'd earned Josh's respect and he gave me a book about the undead to read. I'D READ IT BEFORE IRL............................

Then it just randomly converted to the real VG part when I started reading the first page as if it had been the book as well. It was third person and I was running around this weird neighborhood with some random civilians from zombies that looked like normal humans, but the way they walked and the backround music ((which scared the crap out of me whenever they popped up)) but it was like a kiddie game. I used emplaced machine guns that shot things that looked like vials of cookie dough ((...?)) and it took a while to take just one down so the swarm is pretty much on you. It was pretty much useless. But I ran back to the main house that everybody's hiding in and everybody's GONE. I barracade myself in this one room which was a little dark ((it had switched to first person and looked completely real)) where I used a tv and a dresser to block the door. But they just opened it and the things flew aside like nothing. I shoved my way past, eyes closed and when I opened my eyes I was shoving through living, waking people. They all stared at me like I was crazy, so I relaxed thinking it was over. I went left then left at the end of that hall ((The house was a cube where the hall is pretty much a front/left/right wall guard to the actual rooms)) and walk to the bathroom. The light above that door and the door ending the hall was on plus the bathroom light. I turned off the gall light and just stood there before looking down the hall; everybody was gone......... I took a leak and looked at the door before opening it to pitch blackness................

And I woke up. I'm okay now, but during the course of writing this I was really freaked out...... T.T

Tuesday, May 8th, 2007

I've submitted the first (seventh) submission of the Seven Pillars and awaiting results through reviews. If all goes well, I'll complete the series. ^^

However, the only problem would be that when viewed it is larger than the screen..... if only I could figure out how to view it smaller and adjust so others can too, I would..... if anyfur has a note of info how to shrink it down, let me know!